I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this opportunity to see shining examples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the first time in a long while, I do not feel alone.
Part of me wanted to stay longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I would be doing so for the wrong reason; as a way to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights acim. What I’m about to share was not yet clear at that time; only on the drive away did it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have let you see inside. Don’t want it troubling your mind, won’t you let it be?” This confused me as I could not think of anything that I had said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I had in coming to the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere with its residents’ peace of mind, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for many years, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness soon after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief is being (has been?) released.
There are other things that happened that felt important, but I can’t think of them right now.
Prayer is exchanging (sharing) a Song of Love and Development or judgments of the ego centered on that which you require (agree with) in the mind. There’s no different way. In the Class, your head (content) is separate between Lord and the ego; and you are choosing constantly with a side as cause for effect.
Forms (all things of this world) are miscreations sending the ego’s judgmental believed system. We’ve caused it to be up (miscreated that world) and may give it down any time by fixing your head (forgiveness). True prayer involves that modification of your head as Lord has nothing regarding forms.
What Prayer is Maybe not:
As you are always deciding, that which you look for once you pray is what counts. Once you plead in prayer to own God fix an application problem with another variety issue, you are wondering the ego mind for help (not God). Those forms and wants are considered more essential than God’s Love which will stay concealed to their education you select the illusion.
All outside things (forms) are needs. Different labels are needs, wishes, status, issues, sickness, individual enjoy (special relationships), gifts and targets these days, etc. They’re everything you pick as replacements for God’s Love and the confidence will overlook the objective of prayer by using them to further the illusion. Thus, prayer can’t be about “forms” or “needs” in virtually any way.